basta ikaw, stephen

sorry tol, ngayon lang nagka-time magblog. haha. panu ba yan, dwtl63 na next week.

its been 9 batches since i became a dazer, been a candidate, sponsor, staffer, driver, grabber, runner, proxy, and  giver. dwtl has changed my life and had always been there for me to run to, or as a refuge when im down... i always listen to dwtl songs i illegally downloaded and ripped the cd that i borrowed from stephen last batch. he said its illegal, but he still gave me the cd. haha.

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my batch.

19 candidates with Gayle, and Kris, Emai, Enrico, Chuds, Penn, Dkee, Aina, Dyan, Ysa, Thea, Venus, Carlo, and others i forgot. haha. with Kris and Olive as our R&R

you were the last speaker. the last talk, and i can still remember the question you asked our group that day, "How do you feel ngayon at matatapos na ang Days?"

and I answered, "I Feel so High." In your talk you talked about your mum, your family, and days. always days.

since then ive been noticing you walking around the corridors of main, greeting greg, and seems like sobrang pakalatkalat ka nun. haha.

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i heard you singing the last supper. that's when i appreciated the song a lot more cause for the first time i understood the lyrics. haha.

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i was a staff. and you were one of the heads. pinagalitan mo nga ako nun eh. haha. kasi napakadisorganized ko at may nabuhos akong mainit na GC. hahaha. "O KARL? ANO NA GAGAWIN MO DUN SA NABUHOS MO?!? BAT MO INIWAN??!" hahaha

"karl, mali ka. dapat ganto. dapat ganyan. Linisin mo nga ang util room, ang dumi dumi!"

"Karl, samahan mo ako, Duwag ako, diyan ka lang sa tabi, wag ka nang bumalik sa Control, hintayon mo na kaming matapos"

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you were drenched in the rain. but you didnt mind. you thanked me for bringing the 8 candidates to antipolo.

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you were scared of being assigned to a dark place because you know ghosts loom in Xavier.

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my brother's batch. your last batch.

pinalo mo yung pwet ko nun at sabi mo, "O, lumalaki ka nanaman ah.. hahaha? Utol mo anjan?"

it felt weird because like what i tell everyone, we're not really close. and i felt there's a glow in you. you lent me the xavier dwtl cd, and of course i didnt know how to react, hindi nga tayo close diba? bakit moko pinapahiram ng CD? haha.

"Sabihin mo sa kapatid mo pag nakakaramdam siya ng multo wag niyang sasabihin ah?"

the first and last time we talked deeply was after the BIL Night. You gave words to me on how to handle my Brother/s, your dreams on becoming an opthalmologist, on not Joining a Frat, on our Days Experiences so Far, how Days had changed our lives, and how we help others change their lives by giving all the help we can give in DWTL.

you told me about your BIL night experience. tangina kinilabutan ako nung kinwento mo yun. you told me how sometimes, Givers like us are "Posessed" by Jess and how he uses us to give his message to the candis. We shared stuffs about the candidates we've met. And you said that the last Candidate you Gave was one of the best BILs youve made.

on the last day, you wore black. wala lang. hahahaha.

batch dinner. you approached me and jhun, and said, "Oi, mga future classmates ko to!"

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The last time i saw you, you were with Jane, "Stephen! Andito si Doc Bix! Nakita mo?"

"oo, andun, may kausap eh"

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and that was it. the last of you.

pucha andrama. pero, yun eh.

Ganto pala mamatayan ng kaibigan. Hindi nga kami close pero tangina nahirapan pa rin akong iprocess sa utak ko ang mga nangyari. how much more pa pala kung ang namatay ay isang taong mas close pa sakin. juskopo. ganto pala. ang hirap pala, masakit. masaklap. ang hirap tanggapin...

so... dwtl 63 na. another Antipolo Days Batch. Wag ka sanang magmulto dude, tangina takot din ako sa multo, hindi ko lang pinakita sa iyo dati haha. Stephen, kung asan ka man, salamat. Salamat sa Days Experience, sa pagtulog gawin ng matino ang mga trabaho ko sa days. Thanks Tol,

Basta Ikaw, Stephen.

"Then when we retire, we can write the gospels and we all talk about it when me die" -the last supper