my iPod turns 4 today. And the ultimate gift I can give her is the gift of Life. You see, she drowned in a Sink in UST a few months ago because I was too much lost in the music. I thought the little splash wont harm her so I shut her down, hoping that tomorrow, she'd still be around as if nothing happened.
When I came back to the dorm, she had a 2-day seizure. The iPod became a blinker, and hour by hour, she experienced neurologic deficit and her GCS fell to 3. The worst number that scale coulod give cause even the best surgeons and doctors pray their Hail Marys and Our Fathers louder cause hope is slimmer. And then, after many attempts of resuscitation. Her finals words were, "Oh my God im so inlove, I found you finally, makes me wanna say, oh oh oh oh"... she only gets life when she's docked on the speakers but she never seemed like the old iPod I loved before. She doesnt know my favorite songs, the ones that I play when I need to study, when I need to relax, when I need to chill... At that time, she didnt knew. She was just a box of damped up memory that somebody put in.
I missed her. I missed how she whispers to me the perfect melody, taking total control of my mood. I miss how she rides my sorrows and how she empathize my failures. I miss how she wraps my ear and charge my olfactory nerves with the rush I needed to stay awake.She gives me solace of faith when I need it, said in the perfect tone. In the perfect voice. There are times that she fails me cause she's too tired to play background on the moviegenic sunsets I was watching, or she's too shaken to pump me up while jogging (yes, I jog...sometimes) ... But most of the time, she performs. And she performs well. She's very reliable during trips cause she was the only one awake and singing with me when im driving from Manila to Zambales and back. She tucks me into bed when I can't sleep. She gives me unlimited access to porn in even inappropriate times. She gives me feel good movies. She shows funny videos to cheer me up. She's stubborn sometimes refusing different formats. She refuses to listen, she always want to be heard. But despite all that, I Love her.
Tonight marks the 4th year of our relationship. Rare for me and a gadget to last (hindi nasira, hindi naholdap, hindi naiwan sa taxi). She's proven me that there may be times that I neglect her or forget her, but after a few caresses and clicks, I know that her heart's still with me. She knows she's been a part of me, and I'm sure I'm a part of her. Of course, cause she only has me.
She doesnt need to say it to me but I know she's jealous with my relationship with the PSP, the Laptop, my Books, and my real Girlfriend, but I know, she's all too willing for a 1 hour-a-day relationship with me. Because she knows that when we are together, I simply close my eyes, and I forget. I put her loud, and my cranium explodes. I tone her down, and then I sleep. And that, is enough for her to say to herself that she had a life well lived.
Today I had her operated a GreenHills Hospital and the surgeon said we'll change her heart. And in a matter of minutes, she's back in my arms again. No post op or Recovery time. No prophylaxis nor pre-op. Plus I got her a cool new black silicone jacket to keep her warm and cozy from the harsh environment she has to face.. She's now back to life again. And it's her birthday today. There may be cooler versions of her out in the market now with sleekier and waaaay hotter features and apps, but I'll remain to be simple and contented with Her and I. She will always be the best Graduation gift a pre-med student will ever wish for.
(unless somebody gives me an iPad, I'd leave her in a heartbeat haha)
Happy Birthday iPod!
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