it's just one of those nights...

i miss falling in love.

it's been a long, long time. i miss having that special kiss. that special someone. i miss having someone on my shoulder who can lean on me. I miss protecting a girl and telling her that everything's gonna be alright. I miss buying flowers. I miss thinking of surprises. I miss the feel of getting jealous over some ugly guy.

i miss falling in love. i miss that feeling. i miss saying "I love you", and I miss hearing, "I love you too"

I miss getting into fights. and strategizing how to make it up for her. how her voice makes my day all better. how her smile makes me feel alright. I miss Love. I miss how it magically makes me wake up with Her as my first thought, and how just the thought of her tucks me in to bed, smiling. I miss smiling out of nowhere just because I think of her. 

I miss staring into someone's eyes and just adore her for who she is. I miss having a love story to write about, to tell someone about. to brag about. I miss having a girl who perfectly fits my hands on hers - as if it's custom made. I miss just being close to a special girl - that she breathes in what i breathe out - and all i can see is her face - and all i can smell is her hair - and all i can hear is her breath... So close, that her hand on my chest, is my hand. So close, that we'd be like congenital twins, beating in one heart.

I miss reading messages over and over again just to bring me back good memories. I miss waiting for someone for a long time yet when you see how stunning she is, it makes the wait worth it. I miss looking at the stars, hoping that she's looking at the same star, too. Or at least hoping that she's looking at the sky in the first place. I miss telling everyone how great my girl is. I miss being in love. Like madly, deeply, sincerely in love. So in love that I want the world to stop when it's just Her and I.

I miss dating. I miss kilig moments. I miss monthsaries, and anniversaries. I miss growing and learning from someone. I miss making love letters and poems. I miss making blogs about you. I miss missing someone. I miss this overrated four letter word. I miss Love. Goddamn Love. And for the record, It's been a long time since I want to write about Love, per se, but I don't want to at the same time for I don't want it to be limited by just words.

I miss the times when I still believe...
that there's that someone out there, with the same heartbeat as mine.