the problem with knowing too much...

as i type this, i am experiencing a mild fever with cough and my nose is red and leaking with liquid god knows where it's coming from...

if this happened to me 6 years ago, i'll be contented by just saying "i have fever." period.

but now... with the effect of Para and Micro and Epid (aww cmon) fever might be an underlying sign of a secret disease i probably have. (wag naman sana diyos ko po. having a cough makes me think, "what if i have a Strep pneumoniae infection?", "what if i test my sputum, and probably culture a Paragonimus westermani redia or ova or metacercaria?", "are there "Aedes hanging around my house and probably bit me and gave me dengue?"

i had a flu vaccine for this year, but, clearly, i have a flu infection. am i too cool for that flu vaccine that it didnt protect me? what if the flu virus that i got has a different strain than what's in the vaccine? maybe this isn't flu? maybe it's a flu-like symptom that craves for further attention, and again, for me to spot an underlying pathologic crap happening in my body. oh crap. ang hirap maging magaling at matalino. joke. :p nah, ang hirap nang nagmamagaling masyado, kasi if i know more about them, i'd probably ruled out them all. Watching too much of House MD and Grey's and Scrubs makes your imagination fly too high.

but then again, when tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow, when this fever has subsided and brought his friends, cough and flu(like?), with him away from me, i won't be thinking of them anymore of course. i'll just think of the fever like what i would've done 6 years ago.

... that it's just a damn fever.


well, it's a good thing to know something. but sometimes there's a line between knowing enough, and knowing more than what you have to know. enough that you have to take BioFlu and a lot of fluids, rest enough, don't stress too much. You don't have to know the pathophysiology of a cough, or a fever, or whatever.

But of course, as Med students, we have to know more than what we needed to know. They inject the quote, "this info will maybe one day save a life" statement as a scapegoat for you not to sleep for a 5 item, 40 item, 60 item quiz, pracs, lab exam tomorrow. The unnecessary pain of memorizing-without-analyzing facts, that you'll only use about 20% of it all in your practice. sigh.

The problem with knowing too much, is that, you realize you know little. The more you know, the more you find out there's a lot more you don't know.

haha.