One Cool Gas Station

Somewhere between Pampanga and Bataan...


this was last Thursday, and ang balita ko, rollback daw sila ng rollback. whoa.
<edit> rolled to a LOWER price! :) </edit>

Wala ba sa Manila ng ganto?


Pinasok ko ang koche ng less than 1/4 tank, at pinasagad ang gas... for Php 1,450

four people

there was a 4th Year Bio student waiting at the office.
he just passed his requirements for admission.
He sat down and said a little prayer.
That God will put his name on the first list,
a few months later, or even second,
or even third,
as long as he'll be in a list of qualified students to enroll. 
as long as it's UST Med.

he doesnt know what he's up to.
he has no idea what the hell he's up to...
he just wished that next year,
he will be like the guy next to him...

the guy next to him is a First Year med student.
He's waiting for a semestral grade to come out.
"Damn semestral subjects", he said.
He sat down and said a little prayer
That God will not put his name on the list,
the list of remedials, or worse the list of failures.

He doesn't know what he's up to.
he has no idea what the hell he's up to...
he just wished that next year,
he will be like the guy next to him...

the guy next to him, is a Second Year Medical Student.
He's waiting for a semestral grade to come out.
"Damn semestral subjects", he said.
He sat down and said a little prayer
That God will not put his name on the list,
the list of remedials, or worse the list of failures.

the second year went out, and in came an irregular second year student
he's for remedials in a semestral subject.
"Damn semestral subjects".  he said
but he said it without a trace of bitterness or anger or any negativity for that matter
he just believes in his heart that he will pass it.

The 4th year and the first year looked at him
"Remedials?" they both thought
"This guy sucks."
The irregular somehow read their minds and just smiled.

The 4th year and the first year despised him.
The irregular just continued his smile.

Little does the young ones know that they are all the same person.
That he was him beside him beside himself
The younger one just submitted his Bio Transcript and Good Moral
The First Year was waiting for Psych
The Irregular was savoring the Office's aircondition, it was hot outside

the Second Year earlier, was the guy they're supposed to be. Full Load, Regular Second Year Student by this year.

But it was the Irregular that they became. And will work hard not to become. That they will vow not to become.

the Irregular still is hopeful.
He doesnt care if he's despised.
or whatever.
he know, that in the darkest nights
of hopeless tragedies,
will come a spark of right,
that will start a flame, and illumine a hope
and fan a passion,
and he will one day save lives, better than what the other Him can do.

The two younger ones looked at him, and vowed that they will never be Him.
That in an alternate future, they will choose the alternate Karl.

Good for them


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as for me, I'll still move forward.

(sabay patugtog ng "Time of My Life" ni David Cook sa iTunes. bwahaha)

a sudden turn of events

it's been almost 3 full days here in olongapo with my Dad. so far it's been pretty boring. Eat. Sleep. Eat. Sleep. Drive. Collect money. Force myself not to steal money. haha. Then i thought this is going to be another boring day.

So i browsed the net, and tried to blog about boredom. WHAT THE HELL AM I TO SAY ABOUT BOREDOM? that it is BORING?

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almost 1 hour in, and this is what ive written so far. then my Dad called, "Karl, scrub in ka mamaya, mei CS dito at pinsan nyo tong manganganak"

and i was like, "what? hindi ko man lang maalalang kinasal yung pinsan kong yun ah? at manganganak na siya mamaya?"

(and i get to see her give birth, that's pretty cool)

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so, screw this boredom blog. :D harhar

bum

slept at 5 AM reading an e-book. (not med related of course)
woke up at 10AM, checked my phone, Unli has expired
stared at the ceiling for 1 hour before gathering the strength to stand up
ate breakfast
watched an episode of Survivor
ate lunch
watched 5 episodes of Heroes
ate again
took a bath
watched one tree hill
watched grey's anatomy
slept for around 10 minutes
went to mass
went to greenhills
ate at krispy kreme
ate at some sizzling crap
went home
played garden defense
slept for 20 minutes
browse the net for 2 hours again
then ill play PS2 later before sleeping

ahh. the life of a bum.

gotta love sembreak.

i miss my subsec

they say that in Med, you will be the best future doctor there is, and your school is the best med school, and your batch is the best batch, and your class is the best class, and your subsec is the best subsec.

there's nothing like your original subsec. though i thank C5 for welcoming us readily in their fun gang, but still, of course, i'd always miss the old Subsec. The Original. The Faces na nakakasawa na dahil araw araw araw mo na silang nakikita at kagrupo mo sa halos lahat ng subjects... tapos pag nag sembreak o nagbakasyon, mamimiss mo din pala sila. :) Dati naiirita ako sa boses ni Len pag nag-aaral ako kasi meron pang mas maingay sakin, haha, pero ngayon namimiss ko yung mga ganun... Namimiss ko yung pagka-OC ni Kit sa mga bagay bagay. Si Jane pala ang mas oc-oc kay Kit, hindi lang halata kasi daw napakatahimik niya, pero hindi yan tahimik. haha. Kahit papano namimiss ko si Rhon. Ok binabawi ko na. Next topic... :p


I'd always belong to the Incredible B2. and to the SGD Alliance of the Distal B2, and the alliance between the alliance of the Distal B2 Posterior. 

Madami ring pangalan ang Subsec namin. The Incredible B2, Gabu and Friends, and Subsec na pinakamaraming Atenista, and Talentadong Subsec, the Home of the Dizons and Diazes and Dys and the Ebilanes (oo, may Ebilane sa full 4surname name ko) blablabla. Madami din daw sikreto sa subsec, pero sa totoo lang, si Rhon lang ang naglilihim samin. si Rhon lang ang hindi pa umaamin sa tunay niyang kasarian.



I miss the times when keith and rhon and I ay yung naghahati sa mga SGD tapos sasali na sila Joena, tapos yung dalawang Dy naman, tapos si Tony at Len naman,  then Marris, tapos hindi sasali si Mar kasi natapos na pala niya nung weekend pa yung SGD, tapos isisikreto namin kunwari yung Alliance sa SGD pero mabubuking din yun dahil merong maguupload ng gawa nila sa Yahoogroups. haha. Tapos si Doria absent pa rin.

Nakakamiss yung maglalagay kami ng mga Kodigo sa white board bago mag short quiz sa anatomy. Hindi yun cheating, nagtuturo lang si Francis, hindi lang niya binubura yung sinusulat niya pag nag quiz na. ;) Yung magmimini-prax ang proximal B2 at pag tapos na sila, bubulong sila sa amin at sasabihin kung ano ang lumabas, kaya feel na feel kong mag mini prax nun dahil nawawalan na ng tanong si Dr Sanchez nun at negrecycle na siya ng questions.


Nagdadrama pa nun lagi si Rhon sa tabi ko, as in lagi, kung gaano kababa ang grades niya. Yun pala, exempted siya sa Histo. ang kapal ng mukha. hunyango ka rhon. Naiimagine ko nalang kung pano ka magmurit ngayon kay Keith. Lord, bigyan niyo rin po ng lakas si Joena at Keith para kayanin nila si Rhon.



Nakakatawang isipin nung nagwalkout si Rhon nung Nutrition Fest Practices with matching luha pa at Birthday niya yun. Pero feel na feel naman niya nung nanalo kami. Best Actress ba naman siya. Haha. Bat andami mong eksena sa B2? Ikaw ba ang Mascot ng B2?

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After the Parasitology Exam, we went to the lib and i realized for the first time na ito yung fist time na umupo uli ako sa lib na puro mga B2 ang mga kasama ko (oo, B2 si Ginel.) Nakakamiss lang, seryoso. Naimagine ko pa nga dati na magcclerkship with them tapos kahit magkatampuhan pa kami sa kung ano mang ikakaharap namin, friendship to the next level pa rin yun. May mga nagsabi saking yung Clerkship daw ay isang napakalupet na test hindi lang sa sarili kundi sa mga relasyon mo sa mga makakasama mo. Sayang, hindi na sila ang kasama ko. Pero, wala naman akong magagawa, alam kong magiging masaya ako sa next kong subsec (sana), at magkakaroon pa ako ng marami pang new friends.... pero, iba pa rin ang Orig. iba pa rin yung hindi ka ibang salta o ibang lahi.

Shet, nakakamiss. I know it sound so eFfing gay to say that i miss these people. But I really do miss them. Kahit subsob sila ngayon sa pag-aaral at pangangamba at madalas di na nila ako pinapansin pag nagkakasalubong kami (wooshooo) kasi nagbabasa sila ng Pharma handouts, ok lang yun sakin. hahaha.

Nakakamiss ang B2. owel. haha. friends pa rin naman kami eh,

kasalanan to ni Julie Jane Dy at Joena Entico  dahil namiss ko bigla ang subsec nung nagpost sila ng Pic ng Cat Surgery nila. boo! :D hehe

the problem with knowing too much...

as i type this, i am experiencing a mild fever with cough and my nose is red and leaking with liquid god knows where it's coming from...

if this happened to me 6 years ago, i'll be contented by just saying "i have fever." period.

but now... with the effect of Para and Micro and Epid (aww cmon) fever might be an underlying sign of a secret disease i probably have. (wag naman sana diyos ko po. having a cough makes me think, "what if i have a Strep pneumoniae infection?", "what if i test my sputum, and probably culture a Paragonimus westermani redia or ova or metacercaria?", "are there "Aedes hanging around my house and probably bit me and gave me dengue?"

i had a flu vaccine for this year, but, clearly, i have a flu infection. am i too cool for that flu vaccine that it didnt protect me? what if the flu virus that i got has a different strain than what's in the vaccine? maybe this isn't flu? maybe it's a flu-like symptom that craves for further attention, and again, for me to spot an underlying pathologic crap happening in my body. oh crap. ang hirap maging magaling at matalino. joke. :p nah, ang hirap nang nagmamagaling masyado, kasi if i know more about them, i'd probably ruled out them all. Watching too much of House MD and Grey's and Scrubs makes your imagination fly too high.

but then again, when tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow, when this fever has subsided and brought his friends, cough and flu(like?), with him away from me, i won't be thinking of them anymore of course. i'll just think of the fever like what i would've done 6 years ago.

... that it's just a damn fever.


well, it's a good thing to know something. but sometimes there's a line between knowing enough, and knowing more than what you have to know. enough that you have to take BioFlu and a lot of fluids, rest enough, don't stress too much. You don't have to know the pathophysiology of a cough, or a fever, or whatever.

But of course, as Med students, we have to know more than what we needed to know. They inject the quote, "this info will maybe one day save a life" statement as a scapegoat for you not to sleep for a 5 item, 40 item, 60 item quiz, pracs, lab exam tomorrow. The unnecessary pain of memorizing-without-analyzing facts, that you'll only use about 20% of it all in your practice. sigh.

The problem with knowing too much, is that, you realize you know little. The more you know, the more you find out there's a lot more you don't know.

haha.

paglaki ko, gusto kong maging doktor...

malaki na ako... (check!)

jusko po, ang hirap nung other part ng sentence.