Dazed for 3 Years

Exactly 3 Years ago, i was on a High, High Place. It was my Days with the Lord. the 54th batch. And just 2 weeks ago, it was already the 67th.

No Dazer ever had and idea how great of an experience the Days experience will be.But after it, almost everyone who's over with Days, just want to bring back their Days moments.

Last batch, i asked ate Carms what couldve happened to her kung wala yung Days? She said she probably wouldnt be in Med. And i asked myself the same question too, What if di ako nag Days?

hmm... 2/3 of the people in college, i met them through Days. Special mention syempre sila Amai, Ate Chel, Dorx, Nae, Tin, Kim, Amil, Kukoi, Gracie, Nae,  -- basta madami.

and even though im already a graduate of Science, i still got to know more people like Ayeen, Lianne, Mia, Hayz, Yla, Geli, Abi, -- wag magtampo ang di ko nabanggit. random lang to. :P

When I had a major breakup (i was a Senior Bio Student back then), i was in a dark dark place. Then Laverne invited me to be a staff. (though, nagkalat tlga ako nung pagstaff ko nun. Sorry Stephen and Kris), it took me back on my Days-high. That great feeling of Love and fulfillment i never felt on any Org before. I remembered how great my Days experience was from then on, i never missed to visit a batch.

When i entered Med, my life turned into a whirlwind. I was in shock. and i know, i bear a little lot more heart/family/emotional/ACADEMIC/self -baggage than an average med student carries. that was my freakin cross. And i noticed one thing: Whenever I go to a Days Weekend, something bad happens. After Batch 63, my Shifting Grades came out. After Bacth 64, i had another private shit happening. After Batch 65, i was sick, had no-sleep nights, and was about to give up. After Batch 66 (exactly 3 hours after), Mitch and I formally said goodbye. (although everybody knows na maraming aftermath after that)

and i asked myself: is Days, cursed? bakit nalang pag pupunta ako ng Days, lagi akong nagkakaproblema?

then it hit me: Why not turn it the other way around?  Hindi kaya, pag nagkakaproblema ako, saka nagkaka Days? hmmm. and when i thought about it on the car while driving back to Xavier, i was pretty much in tears. (yeah, so gay, i know.) Because God put it in such a way, that he has to build up a strong emotional foundation first inside me before a storm brews in. Like what Paulo Coelho said, "When I fall, i want to fall from a High Place."

now. after Batch 66, something came up. really bad. and i cant imagine myself how worse will i be now, if there wasnt a Days before that. i've fallen from a high place again. but im not dead, because God built a cushion to catch me from that fall.

my words are so limited on describing how my Days and Commitment went by because we are sworn to secrecy. like what they said, "what happens in Days, stays in Days." But evey Dazer knows what im talking about....

every dazer knows how it feels to be so looved by soo many. that there's a love that's been with us all our lives, we just dont have time to take a while and appreciate that never ending love

every sponsor knows how it feels to get that smile from her candidate and thanking them for all the efforts the sponsor had made to make his or her Days special

every staffer knows how it feels that after the end of the weekend, there's a big sigh of releif, and then you miss your co-staffers , and Heads, and Boss, and your work.

every Giver knows how it feels when their candidate commits to a lifetime for Him. that their shout, means the fulfillment of the Night for them.


I'm a proud Dazer for 3 fucking years now. the 4th Day really is a big challenge.I may not be that religious-priest-like-holy-man-too that is all pefect and all holy.

but, i know for a fact, that i wouldnt be standing here, as strong as i am now, without Days.
i know that.
a lot of people knows that.
and He knows that.


i may not be the nicest guy. yeah, i drink, and i curse a lot, and i bitch a lot about my life. some people may say im a hypocrite to talk about my Faith and be bitter a few blogs after. but i know, that beyond my cursing mouth, and my bitter heart, and my corrupted mind, and alcohol-filtering liver, -- that i know, im not a bad guy either. mayabang siguro pero hindi masama.and i know that there's a flicker of Faith, and Hope, and Love that is keeping me going, and keeping me alive, and giving me reason why i have to live the most out of this life.

3 Years. 13 batches. 9 full and half sponsorings. 1 staffing. 11 Shouts.
and we've only just begun.

+BIL! Tanggap lang ng Tanggap!