alone

ever felt the feeling that no matter how many people surrounds you, texts you, greets you, talks to you... yet somehow, at the end of the day...

you feel alone?

i should be doing things tonight. i fact, a lot of things. i should be typing 4A's directory, create a layout, read ahead for embryo, cell mol, and genetics, arrange pics, and many more.

so far all i did was stare at the computer, check my empty inbox, stare at again the computer and waste my internet card.

i'm bored.

i'm bored with life's monotony and the same sick cycle i have to live with everyday:

start days very late.
sleep at 2AM thinking of something to do, to write, or to think about.
then torture myself thinking about our thesis.

it's been a while.

ma'am chat reminded me about her. asked me how i'm coping and i said i'm doing good..

i didnt lie, but i guess she doesnt believe that. but its ok, i dont need her to believe me.

it's been a long time, i guess. now i cant even remember the exact date we broke up, the last time we've been together, and i've totally forgotten her number. that's a good sign.

...

god, i feel so alone.

another worthless blog

"better go hungry than be alone"