growing up, and growing old

Ok na ang PC. sa wakas. but i have to reinstall every player, program whatsoever that were previously installed. It seems like im the one who only cares about this computer. Im the one installing, monitoring, and fixing everything. and my siblings? they just wait for me to fix eveything and download everything. and as long as im not deleting pics and music, they are always willing to reformat the PC ng maraming beses.

of course im not mad. haha. theyre my siblings. panganay ka karl. kanino sila aasa? kay kuya. kasalanan ko bang maging responsableng anak ako? (tangina kapal! haha)

now, while im doing this blog, im chatting with 5 people. Abi, Sammy, and  3 other strangers who keep on asking about our resort. "magkano?", "pwede magluto?","pwede discount?","andun ka po pag pagdating namin?","ikaw po ba si Dok?", and several questions na paulit ulit kong sinasagot. just 5 minutes ago, i reached a point where i forgot who's taking the room for 8, and room for 4. so napagpalit ko ang mga presyo nila. tuwang tuwa si chatmate. pero buti naman nabawi ko. everybody in the house is sleeping. im the only one awake. doing business. haha.

of course, im not mad. it's for my tuition fee next sem after all. haha. medyo nakakatoxic lang dahil kamusta naman lahat ng mga taong yung ineexpect na andun ako sa beachouse at aasikasuhin sila (kaya amai, swerte kayo, kasi kayo lang yung peeps halos nun)

tomorrow will be the SCINTILLA JVRIS PostGrad Conference. we have to be there by 6.30. God Demet. Six Fucking Thirty IN THE MORNING. don't they know how hard it is for a growing child like me to wake up that early? and i have to print several stuff.

of course im not mad,  it's my beloved frat after all. And i'l enjoy it there. All the SJ Med Chapters are gonne be there and there'll be free food. hehe.

 

well, this semi-rant blog can go on forever right? because i can always write about what errands to do, softwares to install, this heart to heal, and even though im toxic multitasking all these, i still have to be a friend because Abi is still online, and ranting. (you're not a flirt, OK?) The list of things to do goes on forever. A Light to fix, a sister to fetch, a heart to heal, a PC to backup... then i realized one thing...

this must be growing up. a year ago, i didnt care about the guests of the beachouse, or the LTO registration of the Van. This year, im just too... distracted to be distracted.  of course there are sudden surges of my Heart (sabi ng Heart: 'tangina karl, pansinin mo naman ako, hearbroken kaaa! HEARTBROKEN KAaAaAa'), and then everything stops. Shit. the Heart. Nagsasalita ang heart? And then after that, ill sleep, or stop. for a while. then move again. epal na heart yan eh. haha.

so, yan, dinistract ako ng heart talk. what was i saying? ah. this must be growing up. little by little, im taking my dad's job na, sumasama na ako sa mga checkup niya sa mga pasyente niya. and i've been circumcising penises na without my Dad beside me. haha. achievement! :P I've been fixing stuff. Organizing events..

so this must be growing up. i dont notice it but i've exchanged stuff with other 'better stuff.' sometimes, you feel 'obliged' to do this or that, without telling. and sometimes you take the initiative to do something so that others may follow. i dunno.

a friend of mine said (old friend of mine, haha), that 21 is overrated. it so fucking is. what was i thinking when i was in high school on the where-will-you-be-by-21-reflection-paper?

i said

married.
happy.
kicking millions on my wallet.
living on my own house.
playing golf  (i dont know how to play golf, but i heard it's for the rich daw),
and well established.

it seems like 'happy' was the only one checked on the list. and it's still a little shaky. but, owel.

so this is 21. next year ill be 22. the age of my ex when we broke up. i was 18. she was 22 back then. now she's 24. 21 is 5 years younger when my Dad was in Med and i was born. 21 is 9 years since my 'first love.'  21 is 10 years since i got circumcised, and 1 year since i learned how to circumcize.

hmmm... i dont know my i can't end my blogs properly recently. haha. 

what a fucking ending. haha